The write stuff

No, it's not the perfect job - I have to get up early because it's a long drive, if possible they have even less of a social outlet than CLS, and it's never easy learning new systems especially one's as complex as CMS. But all that aside, I'm still happy to be working for Crawford Adjusters. They seem really invested in me - like they think I'm amazing or something. Not only that but my supervisor is an absolute doll - she's so sweet and caring. Sure my office could use a little sprucing up and personalizing but it's big and it's mine! The IT team set up my computer today and they actually knew what they were doing - even though they're located in Toronto! No more helpess desk for me! Everyone at the office seems very much aware of the fact that I'm being taken under the managers wing to be trained as an adjuster and so it feels like I'm heading somewhere. I was afraid it might be a bit lonely since everyone always seems so busy (and ...

Tickets are now available for our November 26 show! $15 will get you in the door and some delicious dessert. Cash bar is provided by the Airdrie Legion. Tickets are limited, so ensure you get yours fast! They can be bought at the legion or through me. Spread the word!

I'm not trying to complain exactly...but my rehearsals for this next play have officially become awkward for me. It's not even necessarily because I need to get in real close with and even kiss a fellow actor but because this fellow actor has seemed to develop something of a crush on me. Usually when I notice this kind of thing happen I do what my sister has aptly labeled the "avoiddance". You know the one - the game those of us who are err "slightly" passive aggressive play when we don't want to face something - especially conflict. I've noticed that this game is much harder to play when your face to face with someone and pressed up against them. Bah! I always thought it would be so cool to have that first stage kiss (I had my first real life kiss when I was 14 with my boyfriend Jason and despite the fact that he turned out to be gay it was actually pretty nice). But no! Instead it's awkward and uncomfortable. The other awkward part about it is ...

Well it's over... It's funny how this whole theater thing works. You put untold time and effort into building something that lasts such a short time. I remember feeling a little sad as I watched the set being torn down after the last show. There was a mixture of relief at haveing accomplished what I wanted to and at having a few evenings to myself again and sadness at no longer having these people that I have become so accustomed to seeing most days in my life - well not as often anyway. Despite the hardships, the long nights, the drama (not related directly to the play), and the fear around whether or not I would be able to perform or would be one of those people who freak out at the last minute - it was really an amazing experience. I wouldn't have done anything differently. I had to overcome a lot of fear and stand up to criticism that would have sent me off crying in the past. I got to learn about myself - that I'm stronger than I thought I was; that I enjoy perfor...

The last month has been a bit of a blur but it has also been a wild ride. I quit my job, finally, as the last post stated and set out on an adventure full of joy and suspense. It was exciting and stressful to job hunt partly because the job market is highly competitive right now and partly because I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do next. I did a few interviews with a couple private healthcare clinics thinking I might fit in with them because of my background at Calgary Labs. I wanted to stay away from public healthcare as it has become increasingly unhealthy over the years and I don't want to be around when the sh*t hits the fan. I was discouraged by the lack of call backs but continued on searching during the day and rehearsing pretty much every night. Finally my Dad stepped in and got me a meeting with a branch manager with Crawford Global Technical Services. He and a few of his coworkers kind of informally interviewed me and then offered me a job a few days later as ...

It can be hard for me to show my emotions sometimes..it's tough when you have the peace loving, lets not rock the boat, or upset people sanguine personality from your Dad constantly fighting with the dramatic, artistic, who cares what people think melancholy personality of your Mom. Basically this means that I have lots of emotions lots of the time and the desire not to frighten others with them. This week has not been a good week for my sanguine side. Emotions have poured past my carefully constructed barriers and flooded all the poor saps within my reach (sorry sweet roomy). Not all of them bad...not by any means. Actually I've been rather bipolar but not in the months of up and months of down kind of way...more like the running around the house laughing and dancing like a crazy person then lying down on the couch and sobbing irrationally. Is it weird that quitting your job can provoke such a dramatic response? Maybe. All I know is that I have never been happier or sadder t...

I've been keeping an eye on Alicia for a long time. It's tough to reach out to someone when they are thousands of km's away but thanks to Facebook and other such technology I can continue to keep some sort of connection with the only neice I've met (my brother has at least 1 girl that I know of that I'll likely never get to meet since she was adopted out). My brother was forcibly removed from the families house when my sister and I were about 7 years old. I'll never forget that day because it might have been the day I died. My Dad had confronted my brother about his bad behaviour and told him that he had to leave before he endangered our family. It was almost dinner time so my sister and I were seated at the dining room table and my Mom had just brought out the plates. My brother mumbled that he was going to grab the cutlery and my Dad saw him reach for a large knife. My Dad tackled him to the floor and once in control of him literally tossed him out the...